My spirit broken,

I hear in my head the Judge's voice

as he pronounces me, GUILTY!

The sentence I must serve

is given in YOUR WORDS!

"The woman and the man

guilty of adultery or fornication

must each of them be flogged

with one hundred stripes.

Let no compassion move

you in their case.

In the manner prescribed by Allah.

If you believe in Allah and the Last Day,

Let a party of believers witness their punishment!"

Two years ago, on Sunday, while at the Sukh,

my eyes were caught by those of Raman,

the most handsome man I have ever met.

After that day I could not help but notice his presence

whenever I went to the market place.

And I was thrilled when I learned that his attendence

at the bazaar was not a coincidence.

One day he suggested that we meet in secret,

and I said. "YES".

As the months went by, our relationship deepened.

and --- out of our LOVE a new life started to grow.

Our happiness did not go unnoticed

and before long envious looks gave way to

malicious tongues.

"Let's ignore these people," Raman and I

said to each other.

"And trust in Allah's mercy."

Naive, young, and IN LOVE [perhaps].

But we thought Your Holiness was

ON OUR SIDE!

Raman and I shared affection,

and trust,

and a deep sense of respect for

one another.

How could Allah disapprove?

Why would He?

When I was sixteen

my father broke the news to me in the kitchen

"You are going to marry Habib", he said.

"He is from a virtuous family,

and will take good care of you."

My wedding day was more of a celebration

of my family, than of mine.

Once, in my marriage and home life,

my husband approached me.

Ever since then, I have recoiled from his touch.

I am repulsed by his smell,

even if he has just had a bath.

Yet, for Allah, I obey his commands.

And I let him take me,

Because each time I push him away,

HE QUOTES YOU!

They ask me concerning women's courses.

They --They are hurt by women's pollution.

So keep away from women during their courses,

and do not approach them until they are clean!

But when they have purified themselves

you may approach them in any manner,

time, or place ordained for you by Allah.

For Allah loves those who turn to him constantly.

He loves those who keep themselves pure and clean.

O Allah, Most High!

You say that men are the protectors

and maintainers of women,

because you have given one more strength

than the other.

I feel at least once a week the

STRENGTH of my husband's fist

in my face!

O Allah, Most High!

Life with my husband is hard to bear!

But I SUBMIT my will to You!

My husband supports me from his means,

and therefore I am devoutly obedient,

and guard in my husband's absence

what You would have me guard!

But my husband, my maintainer and protector,

feared disloyalty and ill conduct on my part,

and he accuses me of being ungreatful to him.

Always there is a reason to doubt my loyalty to him.

And after a series of threats and warnings,

he starts to beat me.

O Allah. Most gracious. Most merciful.

Just as you demand of the believing woman

I lower my gaze and guard my modesty -

and never display my hidden ornaments -

not even my face, or my hands.

And never strike with my feet to

draw attention to my hidden ornaments -

---- and never go out of the house unless

it is absolutely necessary -

And then only with my father's permission.

And then when I do go out,

I draw my veil over my bosom,

AS YOU WISH.

Once in a while, I sin.

I fantasize about feeling the wind in my hair,

Or feeling the sun on my skin.

Perhaps on the beach.

And I daydream about an

extended journey through the world -

imagining all the places and peoples

out there!

Of course, I shall never see these places,

or meet many people because it is

so important for me to guard my modesty

in order to please You, O Allah!

So, I cheerfully do as You say,

And cover my body from head to toe.

Except when I'm in the house

With family members, only.

Generally, I'm very happy with my life.

However, things have changed since

my father's brother, Hakim, is

staying with us.

He waits until I am home alone and

comes to my room and [ahem] --

orders me to do things to him -

and to [er] touch him in places

most intimate.

And so since he's now in our house,

I took to the habit of wearing

my veil even inside the house,

in order to deter him.

That [eh, eh] doesn't stop him, though --.

[eh, eh] He un-veils me,

rips my inner garments, and

rapes me.

And when I told my mother,

she said she would take it up with my father.

But my father ordered her, and me,

not to question his brother's honor.

I experience pain every time my

uncle comes to see me.

I feel caged, like an animal waiting for slaughter,

and I'm filled with feelings of guilt and shame,

And I feel abandoned.

Yet surrounded by family and friends.

Allah [sobbing hysterically]

Hakim is gone, now that he has

learned I am pregnant!

The verdict that has killed my

fate and love is in your Holy Book.

Faith in you, SUBMISSION to you,

feels like self-betrayal.

O Allah, Giver and Taker of LIFE,

You admonish all who believe in You

to turn towards You in order to obtain

BLISS!

I have done nothing my whole life

but turn to You!

And now that I plead for your salvation,

under my veil,

You remain silent!

Like the grave I long for!"

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"Dutch filmmaker Theo van Gogh (yes, that van Gogh) was killed November 2, 2004, by a 26-year-old extremist Muslim of Dutch-Moroccan descent. The current theory is that he was taken down for his critical look at the treatment of Muslim women. It's not a documentary, but a metaphorical look at the harsh realities of their lives. (In English with Dutch subtitles.)

The film's screenwriter, Ayaan Hirsi Ali, grew up an upper-class Muslim in Somalia. In '92 she escaped to the Netherlands, mastered the language and attended university to study political science. Now a politician, she has received death threats for numerous stances she's taken and activities she's undertaken. But as a self-proclaimed ex-Muslim, she has taken it upon herself to make the plight of oppressed Muslim women known to the West--and to hopefully end their suffering.

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