Ellen (Harmon) White's Second of TWO
SEQUENTIAL Dreams in 1842
In her first dream, Ellen was struggling to reach the proper place in a GREAT TEMPLE to confess her sins before the SLAIN LAMB. But before she was able to do this, the WORLD seemed to dissolve, and she was LEFT BEHIND.
"---a trumpet sounded, the temple shook, shouts of triumph arose from the assembled saints, an awful brightness illuminated the building, then all was intense blackness.
"The happy people had all disappeared with the brightness, and I was left alone in the silent horror of night."
"I awoke in agony of mind and could hardly convince myself that I had been dreaming. It seemed to me that my doom was fixed, that the Spirit of the Lord had left me, never to return. My despondency deepened, if that were possible."
But the story does not stop with this first dream. We read on page 79 of "Early Writings" as follows: "Soon after this I had another dream. I seemed to be sitting in abject despair, with my face in my hands, reflecting like this: If Jesus were upon earth, I would go to Him, throw myself at His feet, and tell Him all my sufferings. He would not turn away from me, He would have mercy upon me, and I should love and serve Him always."